So
watching the English version of Pentecostalism or Charismatic-ness always
amuses me. It’s like the watching the English morph into Americans--or
Nigerians.
I am
spending six days at the Pentecostal River
Camp in Gloucestershire. Actually, I should use the future conditional
tense for the noise level is unbelievable, and I might not last out the whole six days. (I am a bit of a contemplative, and experience God best in quietness and
silence!)
Of
course, it takes but a sentence from the Lord to transform one’s life and its
direction, so that’s okay. It takes but a sentence to help you see yourself
clearly, to convict you, bring you to repentance, and to change your heart. I
will stay as long as it feels right (hopefully, until I hear God speak to me)
and then leave for home, leaving the rest of the family here if they want to
stay.
* * *
I came to
RiverCamp with some Brennan Manning and John Eldredge books to listen to on my
iPod as I walked by the river.
Well, it
turns out that the River in River Camp is metaphorical. Duh! It, in fact, describes my favourite river in the world, the river which flows from the
sanctuary in Ezekiel
47 1-12. Googling my own blog, I see I’ve written about it repeatedly. Where this water flows, the
salty turns sweet. Trees on the banks of this river bear fruit every month. The fruit is good for food
and the leaves for healing.
Some
conferences keep the “best act” for last to induce people to stick it out. To
their credit, and thank goodness, River Camp did not do this, but put the
bouncy Heidi Baker on first.
* * *
Heidi is
52, but has the figure and bounce and personality of a very ebullient teenager.
She tells stories with absolute child-like delight, and literally jumps up and
down with excitement as she tells them!!
Her life
is her sermon—and this is true of very few people. She has lived with such
close obedience to Christ, and that she goes on stage and tells stories of her
life, and this is more powerful than any theological sermon.
I have
heard her thrice before, twice in Oxford, and once at New Wine in Somerset, but
always gain new things from her stories. Well, she explains it this way—you may
have been pregnant before, but when it comes time to push, you feel something!!
* * *
Heidi
was severely dyslexic until the age of 16, could barely read or spell. After
prayer for healing, she was healed completely of dyslexia and went on to get a
Bachelor’s, Masters and even a Ph.D in Systematic Theology, for heaven’s sake,
from Kings’ College, London.
I love
that story. The molecules in the brain can be healed just as much as the
molecules in the body, the dyslexic receiving a Ph.D, just as later, her
husband, Rolland Baker, who had advanced
dementia, was miraculously healed.
I washealed from a long, long burn-out which severely affected my reading speed, and ability to
concentrate for long hours after
humbling myself by requesting prayer in a healing service at church in April 2010.
The week I started blogging!! Without that complete healing, which restored my
ability to read, write and concentrate for long hours, after a severe
intellectual burn-out and intermittent depression which had lasted for over 20
years, I doubt I would have been able to blog successfully!!
Remember how Naaman was told to wash in the
River Jordan (2 Kings 5). Sometimes, healing or the spiritual gift you
seek comes because you humble yourself and take the time to go and ask for it.
* * *
One
reason I find Heidi Baker inspiring is that she makes following Christ sound joyful and
easy. Listen, hang in there, press in, pray constantly, obey. She snorkels
outside her home in Mozambique. She goes knee-deep, then waist-deep, then puts
her face in, kicks her legs out, lets go, and looks into an amazing new world.
Stepping
into the Kingdom is like snorkelling, she said. Leave, go deep, deeper still, and look
at your world, a new world, with the eyes of faith.
I have
pages of notes from her two talks, and will write up another post on them.
* * *
Here’s a
last story. When Heidi was 18, a Christian preacher came to her college,
and said that God gave him a city. She sat in front, smiling, nodding, and thinking,
“What a jerk!! Gave him a city!! As if God would give him a city.”
And she
said she saw a vision of angel, pointing at the man, saying, “He’s telling the
truth. Listen to him.”
And she
collapsed saying, “Then give me a nation.” She asked for the poorest, most
desperate nation on earth, which was Mozambique.
She is
building a university there, and has seen some of the abandoned children she
has educated become professors, journalists, architects, doctors, nurses and
preachers.
(I would
love to go to Mozambique and see her work in action. I who find River Camp,
Gloucestershire a tad crowded, and noisy!! Let’s see how the Spirit leads.)
Anyway,
lesson: Just because we’ve never heard of such a thing as being given a city by
God doesn’t mean it’s not true. In fact, that could even be a reason for it
being true.
Just
because we have never seen an angel (I haven’t, though I experienced angelic
protection and deliverance numerous times) doesn’t mean no one does.
When we
lived in Manchester where Roy as a Distinguished Visiting Professor, we
went to another healing meeting, for the same burn-out I mentioned. The
speaker, an American, kept pointing to corners of the room, saying, “There’s a
large female angel there, over you in pink.” “And, you, sir,” pointing to a
mild, inoffensive Englishmen, “God is doing something in you. I see angels
around you.” The man turned around startled; so did I. Didn’t see any angels. I didn't, at least.
“He
believes in angels,” I sang to the tune of the Abba song, “I have a Dream,” soto
voce to my daughter, Zoe, 10, each time he saw another angel. “Ssssh, mum,” Zoe
whispered. Apparently, she had been brought up to believe one should behave
oneself in church!!
I later
realised how stupid I was being. Just because I’ve never seen an angel does not
mean that speaker did not see one. Or the
controversial Todd Bentley who says he sees an angel called Emma scattering
gold dust. Yes, really. (He really says so, I mean.)
There
are more things in heaven and earth, than you dream of, Anita!
The "charismatic church" survivor in me snorts: Healing? Cities? Nations? Angels? Come on. Prove it.
ReplyDeleteBut the quiet voice inside me questions: Is this healthy doubt, or really just envy? Yeah, probably envy, because I really do believe that God could do those things. Still, I can't listen to that kind of thing anymore. It's interesting to read your take on it.
Hi Rachel,
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean about "survivor." I myself would never go to a charismatic church again, because I experienced spiritual abuse http://dreamingbeneaththespires.blogspot.co.uk/2012/06/discovering-god-in-land-of-suffering.html
in the last one I attended. And I like firm, rational scripture-based theology.
But they have the missing dimension of joy, spontaneity, playfulness, openness to the spirit, to dreams and visions which is also part of my spirituality, and so going to Charismatic festivals feeds that part of my soul and keeps it alive.
Ah, balance! We will have it in heaven, all elements of the rainbow in perfect balance!
Hey, thanks for that link. My experience was quite different, in that I was a teen when I was there, so it took a different form and a long time to even realize what went wrong.
ReplyDeleteI think the thing I miss the most about the Pentecostals is the expectation of God's immediate help and the excitement in watching how that happens.